The lesson found in the Dark
From the shadows we give birth to our selves, carved from all that dwells in the darkness; anger, pain, ignorance, hatred and last but not least our fears. The funny thing is most don’t see darkness as a formidable teacher but, from my experience I was darkness’s teacher’s pet, I have learned much. The days that grow ahead of us can be lined with much wisdom if we walk this line. ...... to see with the heart.
For many years I caused my own suffering; walking in the dark can be very dangerous. Banging my head on walls, blurting out nonsense, cursing the same people who were trying to save me and loving those who wanted to hurt me. Details of the shadows can’t be determined in the dark.
When light struggled to find its way into the world I’ll tell you the truth most don’t greet it with a smile. Quite the opposite like I did. I tried to rid myself of such a penetrating light.....damn near killing myself. How was I supposed to know It‘s the same feeling you get when the light is suddenly turned on surprising your visual senses You plead “turn it you off!”.
Have ever lived in the darkness for an extended amount of time light becomes your enemy..... institutionalized by darkness, darkness placed on you and you must learn to see a new way.
How did find my way out?
In the darkness, I could only feel my way out. Sometimes I would sing. I would write then somewhere around 2006 paint and a brush lead the way. I began to paint what I saw in the darkness. I soon realized that it lead me to my voice it wasn’t dark at all, just trapped which brings to my point.
Perhaps we should look at this institutionalized darkness divinely....
What is inside of you that you fear to express?
What have you forgotten about yourself?
Have you been institutionalized by darkness; lies, fear, the belief of discouragement by others or failures from the past.
It’s not bad to be in the dark it is only dangerous if you stay; unable to believe that you have something to offer to this universe uttering the words “turn it off”. The truth from my experience is you have to go through Institutionalized darkness to access it's strength....the blessing of today's growing darkness.
Today I still see the shadows that have taught me, groomed me, disciplined me into leaving such a dark place. Allowing my light will help others to have the courage to turn on that switch to survive the darkness and to begin to add color where fear used to reside.
From the shadows we give birth to our selves, carved from all that dwells in the darkness; anger, pain ignorance, hatred last but not least our fears. The funny thing is most don’t see darkness as a formidable teacher but, from my experience in the darkness that covers us today threatening to leave us in fear and restraints.......
Allow the darkness to favor you as I did, the teacher’s pet, keep it close, learning to feel in the darkness and you will discover what many others have and what I have learned ……
” The power of the heart ...to see in the dark and find the magic"